the blue muse

We say it all the time, “that’s life.” And it’s always true.

We cannot do anything, be anything, think anything that isn’t part of life.

I am stuck in a cycle of busyness, and constantly reminding myself not to complain. Reminding myself to be grateful for the work, grateful for the fact that I work from home, grateful for the view of my crazy ramshackle garden from my desk.

Tomorrow my father is having his second hip replaced. He is in a lot of pain right now, and I am grateful that the technology exists to fix that for him.

My house is an absolute mess, but I am grateful that I have one. There is painting that needs to be done, broken things that need fixing. There is always that. But I am warm and comfortable and there is tea every morning and very soon, there will be a cozy fire to read in front of every night.

That’s life. My life. And I am scattering seeds of gratitude today, knowing that they will grow into more of the same.

Weeds and flowers and grasses and trees, all mixed up in the same crazy garden.

That’s life.